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My Daddy and His Battle

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Maybe there are people out there wondering, or maybe not, that what happened to my daddy. It took me ages to write this blog. I just don't have the courage to pen (or type) this down. Now I think it's time for me to do so. In the last quarter of 2013, daddy was complaining of bloatedness. Stomach upset. Altered bowel habits. He was generally feeling unwell. He went to a few doctors, but none able to tell him what was wrong. Their prescriptions just didn't help. When I finally went home in January 2014 for good, I started to note the changes in daddy. He's thinner. He has a big tummy. Loss of appetite. His mood is up and down. He is generally unwell. Everyone at home is worried but none speak it out except for mommy. He finally went to another doctor and a clearer diagnosis is shown. Blood test and scans were done. He was referred to specialist in KL. Again, more test, even biopsy was done. Two possibilities, either cancer or extrapulmonary TB. He was started on TB m
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Daddy

Third Sunday of June Father's day Everyone's busy wishing their dad Giving and celebrating this day This time daddy can't hear me calling him and wishing him happy father's day Suddenly Everything changed Though everything seems to remain the same But you are not here, daddy I can't call you through phone I can't reach you through my shouting in the house Who would have predicted the last time i wish you happy father's day was last year? God does, though I can't hold back my tears and grief When i look at your room Your table Your books Your writings Daddy I miss you Blessed Father's Day I know you're safe ad well in our Father's house in heaven I love you
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Bored-ness

Staying at home waiting for a letter that will determine the start of my work is slowly forming a weird effect on me. I got bored of doing this and that repeatedly, which is wake up, eat, sleep, read, wash dish, clean, sometimes cook, browse internet, walk the dogs-pixie and daisy, bathe, sitting there stoning, play games, and of course not to forget, texting on whatsapp... Hence, when this routine kicks in, bored-ness accumulate, it really has negative effects on me -  headache... unable to sleep well during nap... Guess i should and need desperately do something to change it... a MUST to change... :)
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Value of food

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Food- what is its value to you? I'm currently in army camp for my interview as military doctor. (Ommit the details bout this kay.. Updates later.. :p)  Here, we have a lot of canditates all coming and want to work with the army. Mostly guys, with only 10% girls.  The main thing i observe so far is that the waste of food after breakfast, lunch, dinner. I know this is not a new or some shocking situation to be talked or discussed about. I can't stand my eyes looking at  the dustin outside the canteen piling up with food! Rice, chicken, fish, beef, vege...  You guys and girls are graduates, considered highly educated. But why is your mentality like a uneducated person? Or even worse, i think a low or uneducated person values food more than you do. So where is your status?  This also applies to those outside who throw away food without feeling any guilt.  I can't and won't be able to understand that act.  There's a lot of people out there in the world who suffer from hu
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World and I

I wonder, did I changed too much or the world is still the same? Standing still? Or is it the other way round? The world has changed and became foreign to me. But me, at the moment is still the unchanged one? I dislike and I can't voice out.  Blogging it out is all I can do.  When will people open theirs ears, listen, and try to be less selfish?  Am I dreaming a bit too big?  Questions over questions, and the answer lays hidden...
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Humans and their selfishness

I've never ever encounter humans selfishness that make me so geram (or you can call it upset mixed with anger). Seriously, when they need something that concen themselves, every other people around them looks unimportant and should be giving ways to them.  It's true that humans show their true colour after knowing them for some time.  I totally agree with that.  Life is a lesson and I'm learning. Let this be my chance to learn how to deal with these type of people and learn patience. Hence, not becoming one of those with that quality.  Lord, continue to be my strength and guide me with Your Holy Spirit. :) 
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Wonderful world

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Wonder why it's titled "Wonderful world"?  Let me tell you a simple reason for this title - the world is really big and there's endless stuff for one to explore.  On my journey to another hospital for my clinical rotation, every morning, i didn't fail to see something that either put a smile on my face, empathy in my heart, or even patience for myself.  A simple smile from a mother to thank the policeman for helping her daughter cross the busy road to school this morning makes me feel warm. :)  A girl i saw on the second day had facial distortion. I may not find out what's the reason behind it, but it squeezes my heart. What am I to complain about life? There's no perfection. You just have to treasure everything in life. It's the greatest and best gift from above. :)  My friend drove me and her there every morning. I'm really grateful of her big favour. Thanks. Driving needs patience, especially with other vehicles on the road. :) The scenery, gree
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