Tender Loving Care

Those babies whose breathing aren't adequate and need ventilation or noninvasive positive airway pressure to maintain adequate oxygenation will only have two outcomes: survive or plus (passed away). The few times that i was called to bagging, the babies either got the automatic ventilator ready to be used for them, or the sad truth, plus during my shift to bag. Seeing babies who were so pure, know nothing about this world, came and left in just that split moments, reminds me of one main thing: God's love knows no boundaries.  He loves us all, no matter who we are. He knows us way before we were even formed in our mother's womb. He has a purpose for each and everyone of us here on earth. The least i can do for the babies is to pray for them during my bagging. Life and death lies in God's hand. We might not able to understand His plans, but simply trust in Him!  Isaiah 55:8,9 "For my thoughts are not your thought, neither are your ways my ways," ...

Roman 12 : 9 - 21 9  Love must be sincere.  Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.    10  Be devoted to one another in love.  Honor one another above yourselves.    11  Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor,  serving the Lord.    12  Be joyful in hope,  patient in affliction,  faithful in prayer.    13  Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.  Practice hospitality .   14  Bless those who persecute you;  bless and do not curse.    15  Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn .    16  Live in harmony with one another.  Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not think you are superior.   17  Do not repay anyone evil for evil.  Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone.   18  If it is possible, as far...

I can't contain my tears anymore. It flowed freely down my cheeks. Since my first year here, you have been part of my life. Even though at the beginning we were not that closed, but time bring us together. In you I see faith and courage. From you I learned to be strong and faithful. With you I understand more about Him and life. Now that you left for the new chapter of your life. I just contain the tears of both joy and sadness. All I can do is to pray for you. May God guide your steps and be with you all the time. Hope always. Love always. Have faith. And be happy. In time of struggle or happiness, remember Jesus. All the best my sis and bro! :') Esther --> Lee --> Susie God bless!

I was having conversation with my dear friend and this came up. "Everyone I met surely post this question to me, just because I'm a medical student and doctor-to-be. 'How's your study? When are you going to be a doctor?' Oh my gosh! How many times do I have to answer this question over and over again with a consistent yet satisfying one?" Out of a sudden I have this superb idea in my mind! This is how I see my Medical life... When I was a medical student, I'm a pure, white, blank paper (surely have to be SIRIM (quality-control) approved ones...), waiting to be painted and written on.  And now, a co-as (co-assistant) in clinical rotation, I'm a paper scribbled with loads of information, but there're lots of fill-in-the-blank to do.  In the future, as a houseman, I'll be a passage filled waiting to be corrected.  Move on, as a medical doctor, I'll be a re-written passage waiting to be tested.  Just as life moves on, I'll b...

Just a quick review from my experience in Interna in July... While i was on duty in the ICCU ward during interna, there was this patient with tubes all over him and needed CPR twice in the afternoon to keep him alive till night, when he passed away around 11pm. When i saw the patient, he kept going into cardiac arrhythmia, since he got cardiac arrest hours before, and ECG showed posterior-inferior infect, it would mean that he needs a PCT immediately. Hence, i asked the doctor why the patient was still here in the ICCU ward but not in the Cath Lab for the operation. The answer was a bit distressing: he has no money. The doctor explained that the procedure would cost a lot, and it is covered by the certain insurance for the poor, but not by some other insurance. If he is rich, then carrying the procedure will have no problem.If he is very poor or near poor, and have that certain insurance, there will not be a problem as well. The problem here is that neither him nor his f...

Now one month had passed, and i officially finish my very first department out of twelve departments -- Dermatovenereology! At first i was scared, worries, and wondered how things would end. Now that i had gone through the very first challenge, i'm glad and proud to say that i'm grateful for everything that happen. Eheemmm (just clearing my throat, hehe), i would love to thank my group mates for being there for me. Thanks to Ressy, our chief, who always help us and put up with all our questions and tantrums... lol... Thanks to Rama, who drove me to the hospitals out of Jogja for two weeks and being hyperactive, robbing my title... lol... Thanks to William who pick me up to campus all the time... Thanks to Wenmei who always pick me up as well... Thanks to Ratih for picking me up as well... (alright, that's because i don't have transport and my group mates are nice  great enough to offer me rides... and i'm really touched) Thanks to PeCe, PamPam, Silvi, Bayu...

Last Monday painted one great memory in my brain. It was the start of my third week of koas (clinical rotation) in DV department and also the first day in RSUD Wonosari. Upon arrival, i suddenly remembered my friend, Ella, text asking help to transfer the KOH and KOH parker they brought there last Saturday. Trying to be helpful, i asked Bu Siti about the ink and went to the sink in physiotherapy room to do so with Rama. The transfer of KOH went well. Then when we open the KOH Parker, the tip of the bottle looks like it was meant to be used as it is, not needing any transfer. But since the bottle is plastic, while the other bottle is brown glass bottle, we thought it might be better to tranfer then. At first the KOH parker ink was flowing out slowly, then stop. But with slight squeezing it was flowing bit by bit. Both of us was just standing by the sink, talking, while rama transfering and i was cleaning. The next second, it was a loud "puff"! The KOH parker kind of ...

I think this is the first time I blog about a drama i watched. Its been long since i followed a drama non-stop from beginning till end within that period it was aired. On Call 36 hours being the latest and the one i like most. I would love to share a few quotes which personally i feel are good and inspiring ones. Hope they might bring you the feeling and encouragement i got from them. =) (if you really need translation, please let me know and i'll try best to help =D ) “坦白说，我当初也不知道为什么要做医生，打算在大学玩几年，可是当了实习医生后，开始觉得做医生一点都不好玩。无论我们当医生的原因是什么，所有病人却只有一个期望，就是希望我们能治好他们，期望虽然简单，但要实践并不容易。” “我不是法官，谁有罪谁无罪不关我的事，谁的存活率高我就先救谁。” “不要用你个人的道德标准，去断定一个病人是否应该救，我们是医生，任何病人在我们手上，都应该一视同仁尽力去救。” “生死有命，如果那—天真的要来，就随它来吧。最重要是把握现在。” “就算有多少个期望落空，我们也可以拥有新的期望，直到生命的最后一刻。” “我们是医生，并非神仙，也不是超人，我们都是普通人，每个人都必须经过生老病死。” “无论期望带给你安慰，快乐，还是伤心，能够期望与被期望都是幸福的事，因为我们还生存着。” “在今後的日子，无论富贵贫穷、快乐悲伤、健康疾病，我都愿意一生一世爱你，守护你，终生不渝，你愿意吗？” “也许期望会带来痛苦，但正因为有期望，就算有多痛苦我们都可以熬过去，所以即使多么害怕失望，多么怕痛，也不可以失去期待。” “我最近终於明白了一个道理，原来健康的人不一定快乐，有病的人也不一定不快乐。虽然我有这个病，可是这段期间我所得...

When i got text and tweet from my friends from my friends saying that i passed my OSCE Compre i was overwhelmed!!! Like what HY posted in her blogs, the was stages of confusion after getting the results. (you can read her post by clicking here --> HY-I passed! ) i was like her i guess. i needed to see the results with my own eyes. i need to check it. i need confirmation. i need re-confirmation. i went on fb. T hen only i believe! i was glad and was almost dancing around! The next day when i woke up, i was still thinking bout it. Was it real? Or just a dream? i was really happy! My endorphin level was high! i was and am still happy! In my heart, i was relieved and kept saying: finally! yes! i did it! God answered my prayer! Before my OSCE i was busy with my thesis and exams. I was scared that i have not enough time to study and remember what i needed. I prayed. I asked Him for guidance and mercies. I was wondering when will He answer my prayer? Now (passing my OSCE and going into fi...

Huh, there i go... i finished my theory year on 14th Feb 2012! What comes next is resultssss.... scare scare a bit... anyway, after my exam, i left for a conference in jakarta on 16th to 18th, and atteded a senior wedding on the 18th night in KL. Finally, i'm home! Happy! Back to my point, just wanna wish all my friends all the best in everything you do! No matter how we did for our OSCE Compre, we managed to finish our theory years! The new challenge is waiting ahead. Clinical rotations will not entangle us but will be the steeping stone in our journey. I'll not be afraid but to talk a bold step in life. Love you all!

Finally! Thank God! I finish my skripsi (or graduating paper) exam!!! And guess what? I got an A! Hehe! (everyone also get A basically, lol...) I've spend a lot of time, and also money on this particular graduating paper. Just for your info, the title is : "The Pattern of Antibiotics Resistance of Bacterial Corneal Ulcers in Two hospital in Yogyakarta." And my sample size is only 11 patients (sound pathetic, but it consumes a lot of analysis though simple...) Followed it long time ago, but left it untouched for a long time as well. Hence, when i continue, i found it time consuming and worse, little time is left! But, still, I managed to do it! Everything is done and finished! YEAH!!! Here, I would like to specially thank my doctors who guide and help me throughout this study. Dr Jarir, Prof Suhardjo, and Dr Hartono, thank you so much! =) i would always remember you all with your different characters! hehe! Not to forget, to my friends, especially to Hema, Aminda, Lailai, ...

Now, a new year has begin. You can hear people asking, perhaps not all, about your new year resolutions. So, what is my new year resolution? I wonder... I think at this point the thing that i concern the most is my studies. Not more than that. O, not forget, my family here in Jogja, which i really love and hold on dearly: Daniel Cell Group. Let's start with my studies. Currently last semester before koas (co-assistant)/ clinical years, i have to settle my results, finish my thesis, and go through OSCE Compre. with only 1 month left, i pray and SHOULD work hard to go through all these. Thanks to friends around, thanks to doctors, and most important, my family, who are always there for me. I know i can do it because of you all. I know He is with me all the time. As for cg, i am confused. though i know that everyone has different opinions and point of views, i just can't help to assert mine and keep holding to what i think is the best. As one of the cell group leader, i felt it...

Have been super busy since i got back to Jogja from M'sia 2 months ago (travel, orientation, camps, ymds and etc...), and have no time to write any post since then. Anyhow, i have important stuffs i need to do in this one month time- my skripsi (thesis). Pray for and wish me all the best k! Till then! =) ps: hopefully doctor won't be mad with me for not handling up my still-editing skripsi on time.

Last Wednesday was my 5th and last visit to Puskesmas (primary health care) in this block. After my visit in the morning, me and my friends left our phone number at the puskesmas for the midwife to call us if there’s any baby delivery, so that we can go there and watch and assist. Much less to our expectation, with a baby delivery in the morning, we didn’t expect to be called soon until days later. But, that afternoon, around 4pm, I received a call from the midwife, saying there’s a pregnant woman who is going to give birth soon, in stage 1 with cervix dilatation of 3cm. We thought that it might be fast, as the baby delivery that we missed in the morning took place in less than 2 hours from first contraction. Little did we knew that this mother is a nullipara or primigravida (first time pregnant)! Hence, we spend around 6 hours waiting for the mother to give birth in the puskesmas. FYI: Stage 1: regular uterus contraction and cervix dilatation. The full dilatation of cervix is 10cm, wi...