Tender Loving Care

Third Sunday of June Father's day Everyone's busy wishing their dad Giving and celebrating this day This time daddy can't hear me calling him and wishing him happy father's day Suddenly Everything changed Though everything seems to remain the same But you are not here, daddy I can't call you through phone I can't reach you through my shouting in the house Who would have predicted the last time i wish you happy father's day was last year? God does, though I can't hold back my tears and grief When i look at your room Your table Your books Your writings Daddy I miss you Blessed Father's Day I know you're safe ad well in our Father's house in heaven I love you

Staying at home waiting for a letter that will determine the start of my work is slowly forming a weird effect on me. I got bored of doing this and that repeatedly, which is wake up, eat, sleep, read, wash dish, clean, sometimes cook, browse internet, walk the dogs-pixie and daisy, bathe, sitting there stoning, play games, and of course not to forget, texting on whatsapp... Hence, when this routine kicks in, bored-ness accumulate, it really has negative effects on me -  headache... unable to sleep well during nap... Guess i should and need desperately do something to change it... a MUST to change... :)

Food- what is its value to you? I'm currently in army camp for my interview as military doctor. (Ommit the details bout this kay.. Updates later.. :p)  Here, we have a lot of canditates all coming and want to work with the army. Mostly guys, with only 10% girls.  The main thing i observe so far is that the waste of food after breakfast, lunch, dinner. I know this is not a new or some shocking situation to be talked or discussed about. I can't stand my eyes looking at  the dustin outside the canteen piling up with food! Rice, chicken, fish, beef, vege...  You guys and girls are graduates, considered highly educated. But why is your mentality like a uneducated person? Or even worse, i think a low or uneducated person values food more than you do. So where is your status?  This also applies to those outside who throw away food without feeling any guilt.  I can't and won't be able to understand that act.  There's a lot of people out there in the world who ...

I wonder, did I changed too much or the world is still the same? Standing still? Or is it the other way round? The world has changed and became foreign to me. But me, at the moment is still the unchanged one? I dislike and I can't voice out.  Blogging it out is all I can do.  When will people open theirs ears, listen, and try to be less selfish?  Am I dreaming a bit too big?  Questions over questions, and the answer lays hidden...

I've never ever encounter humans selfishness that make me so geram (or you can call it upset mixed with anger). Seriously, when they need something that concen themselves, every other people around them looks unimportant and should be giving ways to them.  It's true that humans show their true colour after knowing them for some time.  I totally agree with that.  Life is a lesson and I'm learning. Let this be my chance to learn how to deal with these type of people and learn patience. Hence, not becoming one of those with that quality.  Lord, continue to be my strength and guide me with Your Holy Spirit. :)