Tender Loving Care

Wonder why it's titled "Wonderful world"?  Let me tell you a simple reason for this title - the world is really big and there's endless stuff for one to explore.  On my journey to another hospital for my clinical rotation, every morning, i didn't fail to see something that either put a smile on my face, empathy in my heart, or even patience for myself.  A simple smile from a mother to thank the policeman for helping her daughter cross the busy road to school this morning makes me feel warm. :)  A girl i saw on the second day had facial distortion. I may not find out what's the reason behind it, but it squeezes my heart. What am I to complain about life? There's no perfection. You just have to treasure everything in life. It's the greatest and best gift from above. :)  My friend drove me and her there every morning. I'm really grateful of her big favour. Thanks. Driving needs patience, especially with other vehicles on the road. :) The scenery, gree

Blessings come in ways you can't predict.  Prepare yourself and be brave to embrace it when it's coming your way.  :) Be thankful and always be positive... Even if you shed tears, let it flow, wipe it and stand up stronger... Thanks Lord for everything! ^_^ 

As old as i am, I've never felt jealous of someone i care.  Jealous of things people have yes, but it goes away seconds after that. This time it's not. Sighhhhhhhh... The person i always share my thoughts and feelings heard me and just can't stop laughing and said: you also will have this day... =_= You're really the worm in my stomach (you know who you are) Anyway, my left brain is superb clear that jealousy isn't healthy for me, but my right brain just let the emotion takes over me. Sighhhhhh.... (Again)  Time's flying, and this time, it strikes me more and more that it is flying... I don't want to loose anything precious in my life.  I want to treasure everything i have, that God has given me. (Taken from Crosswalk.com)  Suddenly remember this: if God ask me to go, be ready to change my plans. =) Ps: will my emotion resume to normal cheerful me after sleeping? :) prayer is my best companion, as He's watching over me... :)

早上醒来真的不想起床。 但躺在床上又不知该做什么。。。 还是逼自己去跑步。。。 感觉还不错嘛。。。 Ps: 我就是我，性格难改。而你，就是我的推动力。但你可知道吗？ ：）

Those babies whose breathing aren't adequate and need ventilation or noninvasive positive airway pressure to maintain adequate oxygenation will only have two outcomes: survive or plus (passed away). The few times that i was called to bagging, the babies either got the automatic ventilator ready to be used for them, or the sad truth, plus during my shift to bag. Seeing babies who were so pure, know nothing about this world, came and left in just that split moments, reminds me of one main thing: God's love knows no boundaries.  He loves us all, no matter who we are. He knows us way before we were even formed in our mother's womb. He has a purpose for each and everyone of us here on earth. The least i can do for the babies is to pray for them during my bagging. Life and death lies in God's hand. We might not able to understand His plans, but simply trust in Him!  Isaiah 55:8,9 "For my thoughts are not your thought, neither are your ways my ways,"

Roman 12 : 9 - 21 9  Love must be sincere.  Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.    10  Be devoted to one another in love.  Honor one another above yourselves.    11  Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor,  serving the Lord.    12  Be joyful in hope,  patient in affliction,  faithful in prayer.    13  Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.  Practice hospitality .   14  Bless those who persecute you;  bless and do not curse.    15  Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn .    16  Live in harmony with one another.  Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not think you are superior.   17  Do not repay anyone evil for evil.  Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone.   18  If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.    19  Do not take revenge,  my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge;

A few days back, i received an apology from a friend of mine for something happened sometime ago, but i've got over it and almost forgotten it. But, receiving the apology makes me review and rethink about myself. Do i have the courage to apologize to someone i hurt? Have i ask for apologies? One incident that vividly haunts me last time when a pastor from Philippines shared about asking forgiveness from the person, no matter how long that incident has happened, led me to ask forgiveness from my dad and mom about something i did. i was an angry girl. i easily got irritated. i showed them no matter what the timing is. That is bad. real bad. Collecting my courage, i picked up the phone and called them after thinking over and over for some time. Tear welled up and fell. but i can say this; i really felt so much better. i learned from it. i felt relieved. And now, the apologies i received made me re-think - did i hurt someone unknowingly? How to apologize? There's so

25 years ago, He chose the date and day for me to be born on this earth. 25 years has gone, and I've come to know Him. 25 years of life. Ups. Downs. Joy. Sadness. Rise. Fall. Happiness. Tears. Obedience. Stubbornness. Smile. Anger. Like. Dislike. Active. Sleepy. The list can go on and on. =) 25 years, of course, that's a long time... On this day, it's not only about me, but those around me as well. My family. My friends. My spiritual family. My patients. And all those 生命中的过客 (passer-by in life). It's with and through them that i learn what life is. It's with them that i lived my 25 years. They're my support and love. So, i would love to take this opportunity to thank them. "Thank you so much!" For the One who gave me my life, thanks for being gracious to me all this time. Thanks for showing me what love is. Help me learn how to love. And live a life that please You. Thanks for everything Lord, Jesus! In the year

Mind is the place or centre where you make your decision.  Since i cant resist myself from it, i have to cut the source then.  Remember, decision made, don't compromise or even doubt it, when it's the right one.  The mind is really powerful, and is always in the middle of a battle. :) Ps: that's why i need Jesus in my life... 

有时就是有那种感觉。 对，就是它。 喜。 会自己笑。 ：）

Desire God.  Seek God. Trust God.  Love God.

Daddy always says: "When everyone celebrates Teacher's Day, it will be like they're also celebrating my Wedding Anniversary." First of all, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers out there!  I've never really post anything about this, but would like to thanks all my teachers from the bottom of my heart.  As a baby, thanks grandma, daddy, mommy, uncles and aunties.  As a kindergarten goer, thanks to teacher Chua and teachers (sorry i cant remember the names) and plus the above (hehe!) .  As a primary school kid, thanks to all my primary school (SJK(C)Yuk Chai) teachers, some whom have retired, and some still teaching, plus list above... (List of techers drastically increased, :p)  As a secondary school teenager, thanks to all my secondary school (SMK Sultan Yahya Petra (1) And SM Chung Hwa) teachers, plus list above again... (List increased exponentially! Haha!) Now, an undergraduates, the list is even longer... All my lecturers and doctors, an

This time of the year for 5 years i've always been away from home.  This year a bit different. I was home before the big day, and left home a day before it.  Thus, we celebrated Mommy's big day a day earlier... We went for dinner before i left... When i was in Obstetrics and Gynaecology department, i saw how hard it was for a mom to give birth to a baby. At that, it suddenly strike me - how did mom gave birth to me almost 25 years ago?  I was the heaviest (3.8kg! imagine that!) among 4 and the first child as well.  Did mom cried? Did she screamed? What happened during the delivery process?  Hence, when i got home, i seized the opportunity to ask her. Dad was around.  Mom hadn't answer, dad answered first.  "Your mom is like super woman, she didn't cry or even shout, she just calmly gave birth to you, all 4."  Mom just smile and agreed with dad.  I kept asking, "Not even a single scream of pain? Don't you feel very pain during the womb contraction?&quo

Was really in holidays mood, as you can see it. Last day of IKM, going back home tomorrow, and my heart is so excited to have my nails paint. :) Da da da da,,,,, Me and Eshabell's nails.... Hehe! :)

The Daddy of Our Life Love you a lot daddy! =) XOXO

For the passed three weeks, coming to the fourth week, i've been travelling here and there between cities for my clinical rotation. During the journey, there's one thing i never miss out on - the life outside the windshield, outside the car, outside the bike. Tuen to your left. Turn to your right. Differences. Different people, different lifestyle. Everyone is living their life according to their own way. There are people who work, people who are sending their relatives or friends back to work, people who are waiting for their transportation, people who sell, people who beg, people who just hanging out at the roadside, and the one i enjoy most looking at - people who work in the field, the farmers. Their sweat and hand provide food to uncountable number of people on this earth. Thanks... Ps: I've never step feet into a paddy field before though i come from a small town. Maybe someday i will have the chance. :)

When your heart is heavy Turn to Him Pray Sing praises to Him Worship Him Do not be afraid Lean on Him Listen to Him His words will be your guide At His time, answers will be given. Prayers will be answered. Be still and know that He's your God...

It was my turn to "jaga" or keep watch for the night. As usual, the night started with handling over of patients between doctors. Then, my work as a co-assistant starts. Let me show you the work range: from sending labs ( manual, no teleport, lol ), taking patients's vital signs, fluid balance, filling up the medical records ( basically copy paste ) , sending consultation forms, and etc... As for me, this is the first jaga that I had to do residents job of filling their report book too. That took me like forever to finish just for 20 patients. When i finished all the works ( some i know i can help fill but chose to ignore to save time, don't learn this ) , it was already 0230. *hoam* A pillow, three chairs in a row, that's all i need to fall asleep. ( Ok, i know i can fall asleep anywhere, anytime, lol ) No complaints, just tired from all the writing. i do hope I learned from all these writings. But, there's one thing i enjoy about jaga -- chatting w

It's now official that i finished half of my co-assistant years. For those who might not know, co-assistant or koas (bahasa Indonesia) or young doctor, is similar to the practicals of a doctor-to-be. Here, I had gone through the departments of Demartology and Venerealogy, Internal Medicine, Ear-Nose-Throat, Anesthesiology and Reanimation, Surgery and Neurology.  The department I'm currently in is Obstetrics and Gynaecology. The departments left are  Paediatrics, Forensics, Eye and Psychiatry.  Not to forget, a two weeks of Public Health, and two months of Community Service.  Everything is lining up one after another. During this one year of co-assistant, I've learned a lot. I grew. I cried. I laughed. All these ups and downs colour my life. Each encounter i faced either with fellow group mates, doctors, nurses, and of course, my valuable teachers -- patients, make my life different from before. I've since then learned to embrace these colours and paint them

Since i lost my tablet in July last year, i actually felt scared and scarred. The tablet was not cheap and i had a lot things and information stored in it. It also functions as my phone... now, it's gone. Then, from having a tablet to none, life goes on. I got used to not having my tablet. Some told me greater blessings will come my way. Be patient and wait for it. At the beginning i felt so sad, then i prayed about it. Maybe the person who robbed me need it more than me. Perhaps it would be a blessing to them (two snatch thieves  of them) more than me. Finally, this Christmas, dad and mom bought me a new ipad mini. =D I'm really grateful to have it. Thanks a lot daddy mommy! Ipad Mini & i ps: Things happened for a reason and sometimes, it's beyond our understanding. Leave it to God and pray, listen and be patient. There's always something to learn from every single situation we faced. =)

I can't contain my tears anymore. It flowed freely down my cheeks. Since my first year here, you have been part of my life. Even though at the beginning we were not that closed, but time bring us together. In you I see faith and courage. From you I learned to be strong and faithful. With you I understand more about Him and life. Now that you left for the new chapter of your life. I just contain the tears of both joy and sadness. All I can do is to pray for you. May God guide your steps and be with you all the time. Hope always. Love always. Have faith. And be happy. In time of struggle or happiness, remember Jesus. All the best my sis and bro! :') Esther --> Lee --> Susie God bless!

The title may sound like any other post around, but i just have this something in my mind that i would like to scribble down and keep it in my blog. Be it a reminder for myself, or as a encouragement for my future undertakings... First day of 2013 started with  count down after a bbq party with my sis and her friends. Usually with my friends in Jogja, but this year, since i have hols, it's in Bandung! ^^ The fireworks that filled the sky surrounding me was simply beautiful! =) From near and big firework to far and small ones, it's like patches of flower blooming in the sky... Morning started with church. Start your new year by thanking God for everything He's given you and the more blessings to come in your way... Of course, the next activity is...Shopping! Wahahaha! First thing first, fill our energy bag with food.. brunch at Djoeroe Masak was simply delicious. BIP, our destination. Is it the age kicking in or just still sleepy, we walked for while and i already