Tender Loving Care

Father, I’m exhausted! I’m frustrated! This is my very first time that I felt so stress to be in a group. Problems are with me. I can’t stand and am not in the position to judge or pin-point at anyone, except me, myself. I certainly know and understand well that everyone has their own ways of doing things, so do I. I’ve always tried to accept differences among friends. I want us to be harmonious, not fighting about what should be done. Simple principle, but, different views and mentality. I can say that i understand better than anyone, when someone talks in a different language with expressions and tones of trying to hide something from you. I do sometimes in my mother tongue with my friends. And father, You showed me that it was not a good behavior through one particular incidence. I’m sorry Father for thinking over the boundaries or beyond what I can understand. I’m really sorry. I want to admit my wrongs. I will change and accept if they told me what’s wrong. None. Nothing. Worse, s...

What a topic for me to write about, isn't it? lol... I'm sure most of us know what constipation means, and i simply would like to put it as: visit to toilet without "doing big business", only "small business". What i would like to share this time is that: why we can become constipate at times? and what can we do when it happens? Last Friday, we were evacuated to Solo due to volcanic ashes covering Jogja and mount Merapi eruption and unpredictable activity. We spend 3 days there, and was flown home on Sunday evening. Till that point, i can only remembered that my last visit to the toilet was Friday morning. 2 days no "big business"! oh my... My reasons for not being able to pass motion: 1. The toilet is not mine! It simply means that i'm not comfortable to use the toilet. It's just a psychological thing actually... 2. I'm not in the mood la... Not in the mood? lol... yet another psychological reason... imagine yourself being evacua...

Just moment ago, i was on Precila's bike to go and collect the comforter and bed sheet i chose and custom made for daddy and mommy. the minute i left my house, i felt few drops of rain on my feet and face. i was nervous that it's going to rain!!! oh no!!! the very first thought: i would be soaked in rain and the comforter might get wet as well if i take them now, though definitely there's cover for it. but but but, the next thing i realize i was doing is "Praying". i was asking God to postpone the rain to after cell group tonight. if it rains now, it's not going to stop any soon of course. hence, i will be soaked in rain again while i'm on my way to cell group. i would say God already showed me half of His promise to not let me soak in rain, because from the time i left till i came back, it did not rain, though the sky is grey, showing signs and symptoms of raining soon. cell group is going to start in one hour time, and i pray that the weather will remain...

Every time i come home for holidays, there are a few things that surely will be done... First of all, cooking, then cleaning, then a no-salary driver... On the other hand, daddy surely will cut the grass in the garden at this point, so i have to sweep grass in the garden!!! There's something different this time, daddy wanted to trim the hibiscus tree… this was how he did it… This is so funny and cute!!! Haha! Daddy really loves me you know… it all happened yesterday (Saturday) morning… half way through, he left me and went out. At that time, only me at home! Mom's out for work, san jie and fei po went to some dunno what thing… me alone!!! Hence, after finish throwing all the grass in the garden, I got excited and continued my photo taking… these are the things I found in my house compound…. There you go! Haha! I feel it's gonna look a bit like jungle soon… I told dad and he just goes like: ha! There're more trees and plants but no fruit or flowers so they're exempt...

My Status in Facebook: “i would always hold on to my principle: be open and transparent to your close and valued family and friends... that's where and how you learn to grow, to love and to give... =)” Everybody likes it and I saw the comment form a friend: honesty is the best policy. True enough, no doubt at the statement at all. Indeed, how many of us know the correct path and way to honesty? Is honesty part of our lives? Is honesty your best friend so far? Or is honesty in and out of your life, sometimes there, sometimes not there? I ponder on my own statement and wonder I wrote that at first. I’ve always be the girl who spills her heart out from her act and words. Is that good? Not really. Why? Simple answer: cause sometimes I talked too fast without interpreting what I can or cannot say, as words can hurt others a lot… I knew I hurt a lot of my friends and even my family before with my words and stubbornness. I’m sorry. I want to change! I do not want to be the old me. I want ...

I notice that to hurt someone isn't only about the word you speak, but also about not paying attention to your actions or ways of handling problems. Friends are people you met and treasure a lot, not measured by how long or short the time you've spent together, but the quality of it -- how each one had given their heart and sincerity to that particular friendship. Worse of all, when mistakes happened at time where others have more tense and important stuff to settle, you'll just go "oh I'm sorry... I didn't know that... I THOUGHT it's...." again, the phrase "I THOUGHT" or "I assumed" are not the words to used at that instance. It hurts more than it does good. Mistakes are meant to be forgiven, yes, they are, but they are to be fixed immediately, not even a single moment of delay. It may sounded to be filled with anger/frustration, but I do hope that everyone learned something behind this... never ever add any hurts to anyone around ...

Wonder why I use "ho ho ho" as my topic? Cause I miss Christmas! Haha! Anyway, er jie told me bout using microsft word to write my blog and post it directly from here! Guess u know how I felt… excited! Come on, anything new and interesting and worth our trying, why not? Hehe! Alright… my exam coming soon… study study study! See you guys soon!